Prayer of a Lowly Servant

Lord never before have I needed your love and your grace as I do this day. Let your mercy fall down on me like rain from heaven and your grace abound as the waters in the ocean. There is so much depression, so much confusion, so much questioning going on in this world. There is no steady, no constant, no truth except for what I find in You. Never will I forget the warm safety of your presence. I can feel it stir my soul when my thoughts land upon You. Lord I now understand that everything I have accomplished in this life was because You enabled me. There is no replacement for You. My life, my job, my family, my next step, even my next breath solely depend upon You to provide. Lord forgive me for the ignorant things I have done. Lord forgive me for thinking that my efforts and my abilities were somehow brought about by my own doings. I owe You thanks and I owe You praise for blessing me with a great job and a great family. You alone deserve the praise. There is not one thing I have ever accomplished in my life without You. I used to think that if I prayed hard enough and if I read my bible enough that I would have the strength to carry myself. It was as if I believed I could charge up and run until the next service without You. God there is no way I will ever have the strength to carry myself for even a moment. Without your spirit and your hand in my life I would crumble. My mind is weak, my flesh is strong, but YOU have all of the power. The keys of death, hell, and the grave belong to you. You died on the cross, sacrificed your only son...all for me. You looked straight into my eyes in the lowest time in my life, when I was hurting you the most, and when I didn't want you. Then these words uttered from your lips, "Father forgive them, for they know not what they do." When You spoke those words You weren't speaking to the roman soldiers, You werent speaking to the crowd around You, You were speaking to me. When I fell flat on my face in despair, deep in sin, You looked me in the eyes and died for me. You gave a perfect faultless life to take on the sins of this world and died so I wouldnt have to. There is no love that I will ever experience that is stronger than the love You have shown me.

Stregthen me Lord. Give me courage. Give me compassion. Give me compassion for the lost. Give me compassion for the hurting. Give me compassion for the burdened. Give me compassion for the souls I pass by each day that are dieing. My co-workers. My neighbors. My family. Help me show them a love. A love that you have shown me time and time again. I want my life to be a mirror up to heaven. When people see me I dont want them to see me. I want them to see a mirror that reflects up to heaven. I want them to see the love. I want to see the grace. I want them to see the mercy and the blessings that You have given unto me. Lord I am desperate. This world is desperate. They are looking for hope and change. Jesus. Our only hope is that we change our mindset and focus upon You. You are the change that will bring hope to this world, hope to our lives. Instead of bashing and critizing the events around me teach me to pray. Teach me to pray for the negativity. Teach me to fall down on my knees and weep for my country. Teach me to weep for my city. Teach me to weep for my enemies. What will I have accomplished in this life if I am the only person I bring to heaven. Teach me to be selfless. Teach me to be giving. Help me to understand that everything I have has come from You so it is not mine in the fist place. I should freely give of my time, my service, my money.

Lord above all else teach me to be like Jesus. I desire nothing more than to be a servant for you. I will happily be placed anywhere in Your kingdom that you like. I will serve You in the best way I can and I will rely upon You in everything I do.

Amen.